constantly replaying every conversation you’ve had over and over again to make sure you didn’t say anything dumb.
I was “extremely” social over the weekend and by extremely I mean we had a few different events to go to and I had to step it up a bit and actually make conversations.
I am burnt out but not only that, I find myself constantly repeating in my head everything I said.
“Did I say too much?”
“Did I not say enough?”
“Should I have said that?”
“Maybe my tone was misinterpreted.”
“What if I came off Stand-Off-Ish?”
“Did I say something offensive?”
“What if they didn’t like me?”
Living with Social Anxiety makes me overthink every social interaction.
And I wish there was a way to switch it off and just trust myself. To just trust my gut and for me to finally realize that how others perceive me doesn’t define me.
I am who I am, I acted as who I am, and if people are going to like me they will and if not then that’s okay too.
It’s hard but also exhausting.
All day, if I had a moment to think where I wasn’t preoccupied with my kids or house stuff it was spent overthinking on that and only that.