I haven’t been able to sleep for a good 3 weeks. I wake up in the middle of the night & just CANNOT go back to sleep.
These last couple of nights, I wake up starving.
But I don’t want to get up at 1am to eat or make food.
I eat enough calories or at least I think I am. I’m always hungry, I’m still exclusively breastfeeding but I have also started working out more regularly. So I wonder if now I’m not consuming enough calories and it is why I’m waking up hungry.
Google says adrenal fatigue or my blood sugar is dropping. All things way in over my head. But I would like for it to stop.
I’m exhausted and I know that I cannot give my all the family family when I am tired.
I woke up angry this morning, being extra tired because my daughter woke up multiple times in the middle of the night. She’s never been the best sleeper and she’ll have these random nights where she’s whiny and unsettled. Last night was one of them.
Then the baby decided to wake up earlier than usual and I could tell he was tired because he was cranky and whiny all morning.
Dealing with a tired kid, a tired baby, and a tired me was not fun. My husband tried to make it “better” by bringing me coffee but at this point I needed 20 shots of expresso and I’m sure that wouldn’t have made a dent on how tired I was.
I thought to myself, “Maybe I can put the baby to nap a little earlier and he’ll sleep longer so that I can nap with him.” I was wrong. He did not sleep longer, in fact he slept shorter only throwing off his day and schedule and what I thought was him going to bed was a late start and he woke up 45 minutes later up & alert.
So I am typing this out with all the lights off, hoping he’ll fall asleep soon because I need much needed rest.
It’s not always like this, in fact we all get pretty good sleep around here. Last night and today was just an off day. Maybe because yesterday was a long day and it threw all of us off or it was just one of those nights/days.
Tonight I just pray for rest. It doesn't really matter how many hours I get as long as I can feel rested. That I don’t wake up in the middle of the night and if I do, that I can go back to bed quickly. And I pray that the kids can get rest as well.